Solar System in Light and Dark
Frozen feelings, thoughts and words melted, aligned and moved through via verbal communication/conversation. He supported the process and even helped facilitate. We agreed on friendship and its natural flow. Deep emotion moved in a safe place. Quite a breakthrough!
It is new to be spending time with male friends. I hike with one; garden with another. Another one walks toward me and sits next to me in a deliberate way. He wants to be close. He occasionally comes through in dream time as a gust of wind with black hair flying. These dances with men make me happy as I get to see and hear how men think, speak, act. It's as if I am getting to know a new species (because I am new) -- maybe getting to know myself from new angles.
Sexual energy brings confusion for me and I set boundaries and talk about my feelings. I am not promiscuous and not at all interested in "friends with benefits." It's a new adventure as I listen within and honor my feelings and thoughts no longer dominated by sexual chemistry but by a higher order of intelligence.
These new orbs in outer space create a solar system reflected by orbs of inner space and its solar system. It's a more diverse field with a lot more moving parts! Life has never been more alive with wonder!
In Dr. Jean Houston's course there is a focus on one's life purpose. At this time I don't have the ambition I had two years ago, one year ago and even one month ago. Today I cancelled the talk I was to give to Rotary about the Happiness Initiative. I simply do not have outgoing energy right now. I am content doing just a few things during the day and the more open schedule I have the better. This is a time of stillness for me as I enjoy life with family, friends, good food, bike riding, gardening, reading, an online course. How simple yet satisfying! I may want to travel this year. I may want to connect with Earth in ritual as She is the Love of my Life! This doesn't require a lot of dialogue or analysis. Perhaps this is prayer for me.
"What is your strongest quality?" was the question Jean asked. For me in this moment it's stillness. I have been in this void again and again. In the past it has overtaken as depression. Now it is simply stillness with no movement. Now I am content in the darkness for it is half of who I AM.
It is new to be spending time with male friends. I hike with one; garden with another. Another one walks toward me and sits next to me in a deliberate way. He wants to be close. He occasionally comes through in dream time as a gust of wind with black hair flying. These dances with men make me happy as I get to see and hear how men think, speak, act. It's as if I am getting to know a new species (because I am new) -- maybe getting to know myself from new angles.
Sexual energy brings confusion for me and I set boundaries and talk about my feelings. I am not promiscuous and not at all interested in "friends with benefits." It's a new adventure as I listen within and honor my feelings and thoughts no longer dominated by sexual chemistry but by a higher order of intelligence.
These new orbs in outer space create a solar system reflected by orbs of inner space and its solar system. It's a more diverse field with a lot more moving parts! Life has never been more alive with wonder!
In Dr. Jean Houston's course there is a focus on one's life purpose. At this time I don't have the ambition I had two years ago, one year ago and even one month ago. Today I cancelled the talk I was to give to Rotary about the Happiness Initiative. I simply do not have outgoing energy right now. I am content doing just a few things during the day and the more open schedule I have the better. This is a time of stillness for me as I enjoy life with family, friends, good food, bike riding, gardening, reading, an online course. How simple yet satisfying! I may want to travel this year. I may want to connect with Earth in ritual as She is the Love of my Life! This doesn't require a lot of dialogue or analysis. Perhaps this is prayer for me.
"What is your strongest quality?" was the question Jean asked. For me in this moment it's stillness. I have been in this void again and again. In the past it has overtaken as depression. Now it is simply stillness with no movement. Now I am content in the darkness for it is half of who I AM.
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