A lot has happened since I last wrote. I will backtrack in time. And yes I respect "time" with its seasons, cycles, rhythms and e-motion. Those who say there is no time are negating this realm of polarity and dark matter just as those who say there is only energy. Why do scientists and quantum mechanics not see that Gaia is sacred space with both energy and matter? Perhaps if matter was more respected and recognized as "divine" there would be less violence and abuse on this planet. Yes, I had to become aware that I was more than my body 40 years ago in order to transcend my ego and dramas...but then I had to become aware that I am also more than energy. I am both matter and energy -- a resilient fusion!
Weeks ago there were a couple of phases when I felt deep darkness at my core as if a light had gone out. At the time I was signing my grandkids up for a wilderness survival class and I wondered if Gaia was going to be shifting into darkness. Something deep and dark was present but that shifted and I feel much more balanced.
I was also sick for a short time with a painful lower back ache reminding me of my kundalini paralysis years ago. Thankfully I got better in a short time. I thought about the lower back as a crossover portal for higher and lower energies. I had heard that a couple other friends had similar back issues at the time.
Several men have told me they would be attending my Transition Gaia workshop. We'll see! My eight-year-old grandson wants to attend! He is interested in Greek mythology and we talked about Gaia this weekend. Perhaps I can create a workshop for my grandkids and their friends. It's an experiential workshop including music, art and visualization/journeying.
Good tele-seminar with Rob Hopkins last week. I respect that he prefers that Transition be non-adversarial and focus on creative solutions. Good to have this system and outlet.
Good phone conversation with Dr. Jean Houston's Salon group. I asked about the appropriate audience for my workshop and she suggested I stay away from the term "myth" and tell my story instead. Jean is providing me "permission"...like a friend and mentor I never had in this realm. She helps catapult me out into the world suggesting that I offer myself as guest speakers at Unity and Unitarian churches. I want to do more than tell my story, however. I want to provide people with a new experience the way Jean does with the kinesthetic body.
The other night at Dana's concert I noticed I was flighty. I wanted to go from person to person saying hello and hugging and I kept looking around for new faces to "land on" and also to see how people were responding through facial expreession and body anguage. I later thought that these faces were like flowers and I was pollinating! An inner voice suggested that I change this behavior because it doesn't feel grounded or centered. That voice opened up inner dialogue that ended up with a wise conclusion that includes the evolution of time; of energy and matter: Archangel Michael introduced himself 40 years ago with white wings, the name "Michael" and an intense vibration that filled the room I was in. Later Dragon with wings came into my circle of friends. Now as I emerge from cocoon I get to make adjustments to my own wings that are associated with my heart. I am learning the grace of flying and seeing myself expressing new resilience.
