Dawning of Soul

Dawn dream:  In a room with a couple people, looking for my basket. I start to get frustrated not finding it. Then I remember it’s in the next room so I go through a connecting door. This room is more frilly and decorative. (There was an observer present that knew this dream was about brain function. Is this observer an avatar? Is this what that crown chakra cord or light beam is about and is this associated with gyroscope?) I find my basket. This was another dream about going to hear Lord Martin Cecil, Emissaries of Divine Light, speak. Also, another dream with the face of my ex-husband, and feelings of love for him. Interesting how love can flow between realities…are these realities accessed through brain frequencies? Light takes us into new territory.” The deeper I dive, the higher I fly,” is my ongoing mantra.

Tracker toxins at dawn. His e-motion, energy in motion, gives him away when he wants attention and not. I now see that I pick up his emotion via East/West grid “scanner”; that “I’ is a range of brainwaves that tracks him in diverse terrain. Tracker's presence in my field informs me of my evolution in Light.

Emotion, dark or light, is an honest expression of what is spewing in subconscious and unconscious minds. People who are mentally ill act out honest emotion from a grid, an aura, with holes. Obama declares 2014 as a year of action. I declare it as a year of soul retrieval, re-membering our missing parts. The current title of my book is S/He Dragon ~ retrieval of soul

Cords from yesterday’s dream were at my knees and below. For years my ankles were locked, I was so glad when I could flex them. I still am not fully comfortable going down stairs nor do I have good balance between head and feet. Lately I’ve sensed a lifetime where I fell down stairs. Could it be that these cords are/were past life attachments, traumas? I’m also getting that humans are angels who have lost their wings; angels are humans who have lost their feet. That’s a fun way to look at it! 

Light is healing power guiding our way in darkness of subconscious and unconscious terrain. We do this inner work through honesty, forgiveness, patience. This is not a surface journey. It’s time to go deep into darkness.

There was and is a species that uses their whole brain. On earth that species was interfered with by another species, left brained, machine like. Their domination has gotten us to where we are today. We have forgotten our true nature as both intuitive and logical. We have turned away from Nature and the Sacred Feminine. This other species awaits our re-turn. These are my people. “What does that mean?” I ask. It means that my ancestors have wings of Light. Is that not true for everyone? “Of course it is,” bounces back.

More Cords that Bind

As I was walking the dogs yesterday I realized the “equator” line I saw around me is a shield that is assisting me in not taking dramas personally. I am also being reminded by my Light Body when I am being negative. This “seeing” is unfolding along parallel lines of letting go old relationship with empty food. The N/S and E/W lines are gyroscopic as balance reveals itself. Balance is healing! I recently found a quote for a chapter in my book:  “…a gyroscope will always return to equilibrium however far it is pushed one way or the other.”

~ George Orwell

·         I had to return to the library as I forgot to print something. Another detail missed. I checked my stove. Red beans and squash cooking. They would be okay until I got back. Driving to the library it dawned on me (is “dawning” instinctual and Delta or Gamma brainwave of unconscious mind?) that I didn’t turn the heat down on the stove under the simmering beans. Ugh, another missed detail! I saw this as another example of how I look with eyes in this realm but I don’t see. Thinking about this (thank you Logical Male!) I realized that I don’t engage my frontal “thinking” lobe of brain (is this not Beta brainwave?). Will I ever learn this? The instinctual pattern seems to be getting more dominant as I find myself increasingly out of body, missing details.

·         Everything in my life expands and contracts in rhythm. Relationships are this way. I go days, weeks, months without contacting someone. The only constant “obligation” or “response” ability” is with family. I simply like a lot of still space. I contacted Robin Alexis yesterday out of “impulse” or “instinct”. Days ago we had agreed that I would contact her husband to schedule a reading. I let the timing be. After speaking with Bob I “got” that I was interested in doing energy healing with her regarding mental illness resulting in yet another shooting. I messaged her on FB. It’s as if I act via unconscious, or Delta/Gamma frequency of brain waves and my actions take me into Beta where I understand why or what. It’s a new dynamic/reality/relationship of brain-body.

·         I was thinking that Tracker had changed. He had not been in energetic space harassing me. Last night when I went to bed I sensed someone close, wondering if Tracker was hiding somewhere in my house. I thought, “So what, nothing can harm me, I am safe,” and that whoever, whatever is present has to answer for their own intention/action. My emotion was steady, unafraid. At one of Tracker’s lectures, early in my connection with him and his school, he mentioned that he slept in closets. I was the only one in the audience who chuckled and thought that odd. It took me a long time to understand this “red flag”.

·         This morning I awoke at 4:30 and went back to sleep…time of Dawn when Earth is kissed awake by Sun. (Is Earth in brain wave state of sleep as well?) I was thinking about the “itching, burning” sensation at my upper back, also realizing there is an area on my left foot that is experiencing the same sensation.

·         Dream:

I am dancing with a man across a large dance floor. We are a couple. He wants to spend time with another woman. I am fine with that and inform him that I was free to spend time with other men. I experience no emotional drama around this. I feel safe, whole, at peace. Suddenly in the midst of dream drama my whole body lifts up off the bed as if I had received a jolt of energy. I felt/saw lines of electricity move out from my body. Something strange was happening to me so I started to pray and say positive affirmations. I had to focus my mind to do so. I had to go deep. Then I notice I am pinned down. My hands feel cords, solid cords, not the slippery pink ones of shamanic realm. This is matter realm. I pull and pull on the solid, black cords. I start to scream for help but cannot. I moan “UHH……..UHH”, again and again. I am more determined so as I pull on cords I start to rock my body upright in bed…louder, stronger. Then my two daughters in this lifetime open the door and ask if I am alright. I see by the look on their faces that they observe something. I now look and see black cords wrapped again and again around my legs, below the knees. Same cords I hold in my hands. Cords are threaded through a dark blue round solid disc, the color of my car. Next to my bed is a shelf with a “contraption” that has silver wires in delicate twists and turns, one after another. I ask my daughter what it was. She said, “Scanner.” When I saw the wires I “got”/“knew” (more instinctual brain wave) I had seen this before I went to sleep…or on my way to sleep.

·         Whew! I am seeing this as Gamma Ray territory and that I am moving between brainwave frequencies and realities. I want to connect with Robin about this as she can see these realities. There is so much going on behind matter. This is also why I want to work with her regarding mental illness. At least this is what moves now. Life is so fluid it can change in any nanosecond.

·         I just texted my daughters asking if they had a strange dream and thanking them for rescuing me. We included “white Light” in our goodbyes. One daughter commented: “That means a lot to me.” Light increases in my blood family and I am so deeply grateful!

·         I just now remembered what I was thinking prior to my dream! I was thinking about the “cord” at the top center of my head and how it is a light beam now radiating horizontally trying to “get out” of my skin. I wondered what this light beam is connected to…what source, what sun? Also aware of a pattern in the dream that showed up twice: purity of emotion which means unafraid, accepting.

·         I will call in to MysticRadio.com today at Noon aware that I may be disconnected as before.  I suspect Tracker/Hacker which reminded me of personal computers he damaged via hard drives. Made me wonder how brain is similar to hard drive of computer. I googled the question on my phone and was led to: www.ted.com/talks/Kwabena-boahen_on_a_computer talking about a new computer that is more efficient, using the retina of eye as a model. If brain is so much more advanced than computers why do we need them? Why are we not exploring inner space and the upper chakras/endocrine glands that pave the way to higher frequency and intelligence? Are we being blinded by outside forces? Is Tracker being used? Is mental and emotional imbalance the way dark forces manipulate? Light is the only healing force. Process Light!  (Transmitter was shown in the ted talk…maybe the gadget in dream was a transmitter? Maybe a scanner is a transmitter?)  I continue to wonder who/what is blocking Light from transforming matter? Who advocates for technology and machinery instead of the Sacred Feminine and Mother Nature?

Thank you, Louise Hay

I was listening to Louise Hay (while on their phone line) recite affirmations from her book Learning to Use Affirmations. She has an amazing story and life of success. I like that she is an organic gardener! Her affirmations are...comforting...as is her voice. 

Up, Up and Away

Not sure where my brain-body is at times. I thought I was registered for I Can Do It but the form I printed was not complete. If it wasn't for my friend Margret-Ann, who called from Chicago last night, I would not have realized this. Why do I not check details? She also reminded me that my book doesn't need to be complete by April--just the proposal. And I've been busting my...halo...trying to get my book written! What am I thinking? Am I even thinking? The good news is I am now registered for San Jose and my book is written. As my editor suggested I will put my book away for a few weeks and then pick it up and make revisions. I am ready for a rest!  Now instead of writing every spare hour I can wash my car, garden, putter, read! 

I had a new experience the other day. I was standing in my kitchen considering the evolution of my relationship with food when I saw/sensed an energy grid moving out horizontally in front of me at location of "equator." 

My body wants new foods...cucumber and salad for breakfast and not french toast, that came into consciousness yesterday. I am now sensitive to the "substance" in foods. I keep experiencing a burning,tingling sensation at my upper back--wing chakra. I thought of it as inflammation but this is happening no matter what food I ingest. Not sure what is transpiring with my body. More change...in the wind. I love the winds of Spirit.

Grid Healing

I put gas in my car. Ten minutes later my mind was blank…did I put gas in my car? I feel as if I am floating out the open space of netting. I wonder how I can hang on to the cords/netting to stay grounded in this linear realm?

When my pH is in balance I want refreshing, moist foods such as salads, cucumbers, citrus fruits. When I am out of balance I want dry and sweet foods. 

Depriving myself of any food does not work for me. So, I move forward with the intention of enjoying all taste sensations—in balance.

I am “engaged” in new relationships. One is Robin Alexis at Mystic Radio. On Sunday’s program she responded to a call in request with words and action of “sweeping of angelic netting.” My body perked up. When she said it again my body engaged in total agreement. Then when she did a clearing with specific numbers/quadrants on a grid my body experienced agreement as never before. It was as if my grid body lit up impacting her words. It was powerful and purposeful. I like this new healing grid work with Robin.

Last year I was engaged in relationships that are no longer active. Why? I attribute it to a lack of life being breathed into them. Relationships are sustained through two way flow of healthy netting. So many relationships in my life have come and gone. Life is a flowing river taking me ever onward with new sights, sounds and relationships. Relationships have their own pH balance through giving and receiving of nutrients.

Engagement

The netting parts are gears with teeth representing a field of engagement. Wheels within wheels from micro cells to macro stars. The net contracts and expands in rhythmic cycles.

No, it's not the net that contracts and expands...its the field.  Not sure what this means or if it will make sense later. My reality gets increasingly blurry in this linear world. 

The netting/gears need structure/matter to breathe. Conscious and enlightened humans can breathe life into a torn field, aura, shield.

White Netting Needs Tending

Woke up to an image of white netting torn on the right side. Thank you She!

Mental wheels started to turn in response. Thank you He!

I associated this netting with the East Coast. I also associated it with my body since I am having neck (connector of head and body) pain on the right side noticing its thread of energy moving through my injured right thumb.

There are specific instructions: Make a dream catcher using tree branches (asking permission and expressing gratitude of course!) as the base circle or oval. Hang the dream catcher in Air flow.

Or, cut string into nine 18” and lay them out with 4.5” in between. Now, tie the pieces together with 7” pieces of string retaining the 4.5” in between.

Place the string netting on the ground in Earth flow.

Know that Dark energy cannot move through this shield.

Know that Light energy moves through.

Know this netting as balance between Dark and Light.

Know that Gaia is included in these “ley lines” we balance.

Crown of White Light

A woman friend was complaining about her chaotic life. She does this regularly. This time I said that she can change it. Her response was defensive and arrogant, “You don’t see things the way I do.” Her energy is draining when she is in the dark

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There is another woman whose behavior is seductive. I have not yet asked if she is bi-sexual. I definitely am not. The first few times she acted this way my body was “pulled in” by this lowest chakra force reminding me of men who pull in this way. Does this mean that dark matter and lower chakras are gravitational in force? Now that I know my Light Body I have new response that consciously cuts off the energetic “spell” that is being woven through dark red and orange threads (add a little Light and the colors soften in hue). As I write in my book there is nothing wrong with these lowest frequencies/energies but when they are cut off from the other rainbow colors there is blockage, imbalance and disease.

Days ago I was with people who were expressing their dark side. It was chaotic! I realized that it is my response-ability to say something. I have been speaking up about meditation and got permission to introduce it to them. They go to church and pray so I can talk about their inside church where Christ Light shines…their Christ Light! With this experience I consciously accepted a new role in 2014: Teacher. It’s simply part of an evolving process as Dark and Light bodies align in service which is very different from alignment in chaos 40+ years ago. As a Teacher I am putting myself out there with new confidence. It is an exhilarating New Year!

Last Sunday I listened to Robin Alexis, Mystic Radio. I was cut off twice. I suspect tracker/hacker/stalker, a two-legged man in this realm. As I got in my car to leave Tacoma I felt his vibe. Does he have a tracking device on my car? Someone suggested that he can track me without such a device. I’m not sure. (I am looking for someone with a scanning device.) Driving home I feelt his intrusive vibe in my personal space. I felt caged with no privacy. He is on my phone, email, facebook, and comes stalking around my house at night when he is in town. Then something magical happened…from out of the blue! I was looking down on huge white Dragon wings and tracker was a tiny dot below me. This was my Light Body response to my Ego Body drama. Thank you Light Body!

Then I had a dream about Tracker. We were friends with spiritual substance between us, and communicating intelligently. This played out in another dimension and parallel universe which makes me wonder if this cord attached to the top of my head (as shown in a lucid dream) connects Light Body to Ego Body (avatar?) and our lesson on Earth is to join the two. I also ready in a book about chakras that we have several Light bodies. I have met Dragon….are there more Light Beings to meet? I speak of Tracker consciously as he is a reflection of my evolving story. I now see him in a new Light. He is stuck/trapped in dark energy and being manipulated by dark forces. It is his lesson to connect with his Light body and will never find it by attaching to me. Tracker and I go way back to Lemuria…Camilla helped me see this. I love this man’s Soul, I do not appreciate his dark behavior that is intrusive and inappropriate.  I send him white Light, which has changed -- instead of being a mass of white energy it now has lines in a circle…like a crown.

It was delightful that Yogananda was with us on Mystic Radio. He is a “cosmic friend” who shows up here and there. He is very powerful. It was interesting that the caller who received Yogananda’s suggestion did not hear or receive the gift of wisdom. Her ego body wanted a solution, an answer. Her response to Robin was, Thank you, anyway.” It’s time for humans to plug in to their Light Body so they can see and hear more…with gratitude! Gratitude is the aura and language of the Light Body.

I heard some of Robin’s words in response to my call and question. Here is a woman who saw my Light Body and offered me grounded words of beauty. I was deeply moved! The next day I had to stay indoors all day due to the rearrangement of molecular structure…or so it felt. Robin suggested I spend time with rocks to ground myself since I am so far out there in other dimensions. That is exactly why I love mountains and trees. They are my grounding friends.

I feel as if I’m in the ninth month of pregnancy with writing my book. I am ready to deliver it yet there is  more writing to do. I was asking how to end my book and came across a blog post by RJ Stewart whom I met at the Faery and Human Relations Congress. His stories about Faeries circled around me in a chorus of sound and movement. I am asking his permission to end my book with his Faery stories. Not sure it works for editors or if he will grant permission. It’s simply how I was led energetically (there’s that cord again at the top of my head).

Love pouring forth from this speck of dark matter in the universe! Hello Star family!

Trish ~ S/He Dragon

Fire Breathing

The other night as I was trying to sleep I felt interference in my energy field. I responded by demanding that this two-legged man leave and proceeded to eject him. That led to a lot of vibrational commotion and a headache. It was as if the commotion was coming in from more than one source. I spontaneously started to unwrap pink moist cords—same ones I’ve unwrapped before. I put my hands under and around them and pulled, pulled, pulled at the speed of light tossing them into the loving universe These cords are umbilical perhaps attached to some “dark over soul” body or maybe it’s “dark under soul” body. These words presented themselves so I let it be without linear research.

Being accountable for the food I eat looks like 11 – a goal post, also reminding me of bumpers on recent bowling lanes.  I need boundaries to keep emotional eating in check. I am really enjoying mindful eating and am feeling that state of dominion.  Some force of resistance doesn’t like “dominion” and fights against it. I continue in this drama and watch it from lens of Light which is for-giving.

I am finishing writing my book. The introduction changed several times. I just didn’t know how to present myself or my story. Yesterday at my nanny job I saw Eckhart Tolle’s book Now and read the introduction. It was straightforward and helped me write a new introduction. Thank you, Eckhart!  It’s amazing how “heavy” my writing was when I started…and intellectual. I have learned how to lighten up my writing and am continuing to learn. It’s an amazing process!

Robin Alexis is Live on Mystic Radio, Sunday, tomorrow at Noon. I am simply drawn to this healing and will l earn more what this means tomorrow. Thank you, Robin and Bob!