Wings of Spirit

On wings of Spirit
Is shift
Of energy
And I engage
Again

With community
Transition
Facebook
Coal Train
Happiness

Reaching out
Coordinating
Posting
Scheduling

I Let
Wings of Spirit
Hold me
Guide me

So very Feminine

Our Mother
Who art thy Earth

Evolutionary Puzzle

When another piece of our evolutionary puzzle comes into view all things are made new.  The transformation is across the board so to speak as one sees a larger picture with new vision.  One doesn't have to go back in time to fix anything or anyone...especially oneself.  How intelligent is that?  Very.

I am meeting a woman I cut out of my life/fled from and may call another to ask for the same sort of meeting.  I am not interested in debating who is/was right or wrong or who said what/when.  I am simply interested in starting anew.  Why?  Because I am new as is the whole field.  How resilient are the parts to let this move through the whole?

Someone said that I could tell them how I do Shamanism.  My response was quick, without thought:  "I don't do Shamanism.  Shamanism does me."  Is this also true of imagination in that I don't use my imagination; my imgaginatin uses me.  Our bodies are the flowers and trees through which energy flows.

I am having a new experience as I relate to Dr. Jean Houston.  I don't know how to describe it other than the experience feels like manna from Heaven.  She seems to fill in spaces that have been vacant or maybe stitching together seams that have been separate.  Quite a nourishing adventure!

FIRE

Sexual FIRE is one spark in a whole system of spark plugs.  Re-wiring, re-charging, re-connecting the parts brings new FIRE in the whole.  New sexuality is an expanded, unified and vibrant force field.  He called and wanted to know if I wanted to get together.  What do I say to a man who is alcoholic and interested in sex more than friendship.  What degree of honesty do I use?  Am I straight out honest or do I water it down?  This communication is new to me.  I am scheduling time with the woman I unfriended on facebook.  She will be easier to talk with.

Edgar Cayce’s Source talks about astrology of soul and how each [spark] spends time in the different planetary influences.  The Source talks about reincarnation and karma.  This bigger picture makes me realize that my strengths and weaknesses are caused by past events/effects.  This bigger picture reminds me that people I am in drama with (both positive and negative) have been with me before.  Where there has been and is negativity I can change history!  Where there is positivity I can add to it!  (Edgar Cayce’s Source informed him that he was living his seventh life and those around him living their third and fourth.)

I am female and emotional.  I don’t want a monotone or monochrome life.  I have a rainbow of feelings and expressions.  Others teach me what works to sustain healthy and harmonious relationship.  I teach others the same.  This is a dynamic process that only Loving Intelligence can design as spiraling and upward. 

It’s a good day when I can be outside with garden fork in hand.  The other day I cleaned the chicken coop.  As I was scraping the layer of manure from the cement floor I asked, “Do the chickens even care about a clean floor?”  The reply: “The chickens and Universe appreciate your labor of love.”

Our Mother

Who art of Earth

Sacred be thy name

Thy Nature come

Thy Grace be done

In Heaven

As it is in Earth

Psyche

When the Cyclops face appeared recently I spontaneously tapped him with a wand.  He didn’t vanish so I tapped him directly on the head.  “Thunk!”  I actually touched him!  Early Saturday morning I was thinking about a woman friend and felt a vibrational connection.  My right hand spontaneously reached out and…touched her...hand to hand!  So fun!  So loving!  What is this experience of contact in space/time and in between seams of realms?  I see it as holographic as two orbs project/e-mote substance to meet in the middle.  Imagine if humans could communicate more fully this way.  We wouldn’t need cars, airplanes, computers, i-phones and Mother Earth’s home would have much less waste and pollution. Maybe we would even meet space beings more intelligent and advance than we in our evolutionary process!  Is this playing out in our psyche field?

 psyche /psy·che/ (si´ke)

1. the human faculty for thought, judgment, and emotion; the mental life, including both conscious and unconscious processes; the mind in its totality, as distinguished from the body.

2. the soul or self.psy´chic

Psy·che n. Greek Mythology A young woman who loved and was loved by Eros and was united with him after Aphrodite's jealousy was overcome. She subsequently became the personification of the soul.

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Solar System in Light and Dark

Frozen feelings, thoughts and words melted, aligned and moved through via verbal communication/conversation.  He supported the process and even helped facilitate.  We agreed on friendship and its natural flow.  Deep emotion moved in a safe place.  Quite a breakthrough!

It is new to be spending time with male friends.  I hike with one; garden with another.  Another one walks toward me and sits next to me in a deliberate way.  He wants to be close.  He occasionally comes through in dream time as a gust of wind with black hair flying.  These dances with men make me happy as I get to see and hear how men think, speak, act.  It's as if I am getting to know a new species (because I am new) -- maybe getting to know myself from new angles.

Sexual energy brings confusion for me and I set boundaries and talk about my feelings.  I am not promiscuous and not at all interested in "friends with benefits."  It's a new adventure as I listen within and honor my feelings and thoughts no longer dominated by sexual chemistry but by a higher order of intelligence.

These new orbs in outer space create a solar system reflected by orbs of inner space and its solar system.  It's a more diverse field with a lot more moving parts!  Life has never been more alive with wonder!

In Dr. Jean Houston's course there is a focus on one's life purpose.  At this time I don't have the ambition I had two years ago, one year ago and even one month ago.  Today I cancelled the talk I was to give to Rotary about the Happiness Initiative.  I simply do not have outgoing energy right now.  I am content doing just a few things during the day and the more open schedule I have the better.  This is a time of stillness for me as I enjoy life with family, friends, good food, bike riding, gardening, reading, an online course.  How simple yet satisfying!  I may want to travel this year.  I may want to connect with Earth in ritual as She is the Love of my Life!  This doesn't require a lot of dialogue or analysis.  Perhaps this is prayer for me.

"What is your strongest quality?" was the question Jean asked.  For me in this moment it's stillness.  I have been in this void again and again.  In the past it has overtaken as depression.  Now it is simply stillness with no movement.  Now I am content in the darkness for it is half of who I AM.

Worm Virus

I bought a new laptop and one afternoon when I was at Soul Food Books I noticed it freezing up.  I had to take it to the tech department.  They could not fix it saying that the hard drive was damaged.  This has happened to every computer I've owned.  Once again Tracker/Hacker/Stalker wormed his way into my computer and caused damage.  So, I am on this machine less and interracting face to face more. 

Tracker shenanigans make me wonder if Homo Sapien has a virus that has wormed its way into our collective hard drive.  A virus that has had us stuck.

With clear vision we see deeper and farther.  With clear vision we expose what has been hidden.  And in this process we rise up out of darkness into light.

Frozen feelings and thoughts are thawing and we are in the midst of exorcism as they release.  This purifying process is freeing for one and all.

Beyond Fight and Flight

She wants to know why I unfriended her on Facebook.  I will tell her when I have the opportunity.

Mom was trapped in a deaf body, in a house in the country without knowing how to drive, in the role of raising six kids with a man who was inappropriate toward women.  I told myself I would never be trapped.  At a young age I learned to flee on my bike, on foot, in my car.  As a family we never communicated feelings.  We acted on a surface level like robotic machines.

I have continued to flee from people and uncomfortable circumstances. In my evolution I see that there is a third way:  communication of thoughts and feelings.  This means I have to be receptive to new programming and new behavior that is more enlightened.

I listen within and watch for guidance.  Wing chakra carries me upward in Light of Love.

Robot Man, Robot Woman

My intention was to spend time with men as friends.  I quickly learned that some men don't want friendship or relationship they want sex.  Men act like robotic machines using one woman and another just like they use green trees, brown fertile land and blue waters.  What is left in their wake?  Barren wasteland.  And women?  They, too, act like robotic machines doing what they can to look the same, act the same, sound the same to attract and keep that robotic male.  This adds to the wasteland.

How did men and women get to this robotic state of low vibration and living?  What happened to the emotional heart that pumps life force within and between the parts?  Has this heart always been a missing piece or has Homo Sapien been manipulated by a larger outside force that wants control?

Robot Man and Robot Woman are passing away as men take on greater feminine charge of intuition and emotion and as women take on greater male charge of logic and thinking.  This change in wiring and chemistry is associated with wing chakra opening behind the heart.  Yes, Homo Sapiens are baseline physical for the purpose of creating life.  Homo Sapien is also highline spiritual for the purpose of generating Life Force through the Light of Love. Homo Sapien is becomeing more angelic.

Shaman to Shaman

For reasons of the heart I called him and wrote to him: My heart doesn't feel safe with you and I have a very short list as to why. Perhaps you have a similar experience with me. This fear within and in between blocks energy flow and e-motion. Shaman to Shaman I'd like to suggest that we work with this and transform it. This is my first step in pulling my feelings and thoughts together and communicating them to you. Communication is key. Perhaps at some point I can share that list.

Cyclops

This morning in the midst of psychic/etheric interraction a face appears at the right side of the screen of mind's eye.  He has dark color around his chin and one eye...red.  "Cyclops."

Cyclops
In Greek and Roman mythology, a cyclops is a very strong giant with a single eye in the middle of its forehead. Depending on the author they are the sons of Uranus and Gaia (Heaven and Earth) or the sons of Neptune and Amphitrite. They are described as barbaric monsters who live in poverty eating only what grows wild on the land and/or human flesh. Their homes are large dark caves in the land of Vulcan where they labor at forging weapons for the armory of the gods including thunderbolts for Zeus, the helmet of invisibility for Pluto, and the trident for Neptune.

Fairy Wand Speaks

Yesterday I woke up to Shadow Man's face in the distance.  I spontaneiously lifted my right arm that held a fairy wand.  The wand was sprinkling fairy dust/sparks of light. This is not a conscious act--this is sub-conscious.  I asked how a fairy wand is different than a rattle.  The answer:  They are not different...they are the same.  I'm sure there is text that goes into detail about these two different objects.  This is not the language of the sub-conscious, however.  Sub-conscious response and communication is energetic and non-linear.

Shadow Man

I saw another unfriendly face as I awoke today. These faces are common lately and they all have one thing in common: demonic eyes. One face had no eyes so I gave it some that sparkled with life. Yes, I use my imagination!

An artist friend was over the other day and she painted a wolf as I painted a flower. She showed me a portrait she had sketched from a scary incident in her past: She was in bed and noticed movement on the covers and then she saw his face. She was petrified and could not move so she prayed. A white light appeared in the corner of her room and it grew and grew. When it dissipated the entity was gone. When she went to Iowa to visit her daughter, whom she is very close to, she showed her the sketch. Her daughter jumped up and left the room to return with a sketch she had made of the same entity. This is that face. Notice the eyes. I saw similar eyes on the faces of two of the men who recently shot people in a theatre and in a grade school. How to describe this expression?

It's time to address and expose this realm that is invisible to most people but influenced by it none the less. When the face appeared this morning my hand and rattle went directly in front of the face. Why is my body rattling above the heads of those I am associated with in this realm and in front of the faces of strangers? My teacher is my body!

I now know why I don't have the energy to organize Transition or Happiness events, talks, meetings. I am on a new path this year and that path is lead by Jean Houston. I am now her student and will be working with her in ways that are yet to be revealed. I have new work to do...we all have new work to do! And included in our work is this realm of the etheric body that is subtle and that hides shadows. I want to talk about psychic abuse and predators at all levels. I want to open this realm in consciousness and free those shadows who are stuck here. Shadow Selves disperse in Light of Love.

As the human dense body is surrounded by a subtle body so is our Earth Mother. Why? Because this is a holographic universe. The parts reflect the whole! We heal this new layer of our One Body and let the parts disperse as they must. "It is a new world order"....those words flowing through me.

High Lights

I attended a woman's circle last week and afterward as I was trying to fall asleep I noticed that my body was buzzing as if I had drank caffeine and that I was seeing moving images with blue tints. This was not a vision nor a dream as I was wide awake. I wondered about that bite of brownie and that raw green smoothie. I suspect it was plant "medicine" and will have to look up the unfamiliar plants such as mesquite. This "high" lasted several hours. Magical waving movements after Jean Houston's Awakening course last night. Woke up to shapeshifting wolves. Today my rattle kept coming into play. When someone whom I am "in drama" with came to mind my rattle appeared and made its happy sounds. I find this delightful and such good medicine. I hope to plant gourds in the garden and make rattles next fall. This development was not something I intended or even thought about. It simply evolved. Rattles have a life and intelligence of their own! And I have a rattle at the top of my head reaching out to others dissipating the old and making all things new. Enchanting!

Birds of Song

Riding my bike south on the river trail yesterday a large bird flies north. Eagle. Why are birds of prey so honored? I think of songbirds and their humble role that lifts the senses...in Spirit. My brain is able to be more expansive since I am not organizing events and connecting so many dots. There is less pressure/stress and I can be more fully in the moment. This new spaciousness keeps me spacey and I have to be very deliberate in asking: Where am I; What am I doing now? No, it is not a senior moment. I and we are being pulled into a new dimension.

Middle Earth Hologram

Middle Earth
A generative hologram
Mirrored parts
Reflecting the whole

Middle Earth
Awakening
As mirrors clear
Edge and angle

Middle Earth
Pulling us
Into vortex Dimensional

Middle Earth
Embracing parts
Parts embracing
Whole

Middle Earth
A generative hologram

What Are the Main Types of Holograms Today?
By Dr. Tung. H. Jeong Copyright © 2005 Integraf LLC

1. INTRODUCTION

A hologram is a recording in a two- or three-dimensional medium of the interference pattern formed when a point source of light (the reference beam) of fixed wavelength encounters light of the same fixed wavelength arriving from an object (the object beam). When the hologram is illuminated by the reference beam alone, the diffraction pattern recreates the wave fronts of light from the original object. Thus, the viewer sees an image indistinguishable from the original object. There are many types of holograms, and there are varying ways of classifying them. For our purpose, we can divide them into two types: reflection holograms and transmission holograms. Read more: http://www.integraf.com/a-Types_of_Holograms.htm#ixzz2HdA7wSG8

Rattle Speaks

"Turtle" came up a couple times as I was communicating online with folks signed up for Jean's Awakening course.  These unexpected "flowers" reveal themselves through collective generative substance.  These flowers of quantum manifestation (we create this reality) light our way and path. 

In the middle of the night (3 AM) I thought of someone who is in deep depression because she was rejected by a man.  I wanted to reach out to her and found myself rattling above her head and shoulders.  I rattled to clear out toxins, demons, negative patterns that have followed her most her life. The rattling sound was very loud and that "middle" space/time very real.

I looked for more information about rattle in my Native American books and found Where Eagles Fly  A Shamanic Way to Inner Wisdom by Kenneth Meadows

Shamanic Tools ...the Life Force has a sound (though ordinarily it is inaudible) because it is essentially movment and movement is what produces sound.  The Life Force pulsates like a heart-beat or the regular, monotone rhythm of a drum, and it also vibrates, swirling and spiralling in flowing circular motions like seeds swishing in a rattle when it is shaken.  So a drum and a rattle in the hands of a shamanist are not simply means of making a noise, howeverjoyful, but also m eans of stimulating the sound and movement of the Life Force.  This is why the drum and the rattle are principal tools of the shaman.

A shamanic tool is an extension of the person using it, and its purpose is to perform work.  Its power and effectiveness are derived directly from the skill and intention of the person usingit and from their motive for needing to do so.  A drum and a rattle in the hands of a shamanist are conditioned by his or her motive and directed by their intention.

Motive is an expression of the desire and generates activity.  Intention is an act of the will towards a specific purpose, and channles its use.  In Shamanics, the motive is always the samwe--Love and Harmony.  Only the intention changes.  In Shamanics, whatever is done is performed out of loving service and in order to restore or retain harmony through co-operation with the natural forces.  It is motive that separates the shamanist from the sorcerer.  A sorcerer endeavors to manipulate and exert control over natural forces for selfish purposes. When manipulation and exploitation of natural forces is motivated by self-interest, greed and egotism, it creates stress, and at some level causes pain.  It is the cause, too, of much of the misery, unhappiness, confusion and division in the world, for it sets negative energies into motion.

An intention is a positive affirmation that prepares a channel through substance along which energy may flow unimpeded.  The intention is what connects the rattle to the rattler and may differ with each "working" and may even change withing a working.  It specifies not only the aim but the outcome and must always be clear and precise if it is to be effective.  For instance, the intention of a simple working may be to disperse stressful energies and to restore harmony to a person's body and mind. That intention would need  to be repeated silently by the rattler whose intention would be focused upon it.  The rattling sound itself, once started, will then free any congestion that has built up in the receiver's energy-system and smooth out the fibres of the Energic Body, much as a gentle brushing revitalizes and conditions the hair.  The pleasant sound relaxes the mind also, as the receiver undergoes what could be described as a sonic massage.

I heard that this young woman was not responding to any outside simuli early today but by this afternoon she was praying with a friend.  I will try to spend some time with her.

I've never been good at following mental instructions about how to practice "medicine."  I turn within and listen as my body shows me the way.  The mental mind and its linear ways do not fit into shamanic practice.

Friend Peter's mom loaned me the book A New Earth by Ekhart Tolle.  The first chapter is about the flowering of consciousness and he refers to the word "flower" a lot.  He also makes some strong statements about the ego mind.  This is my first introduction to this man/author and I am happy to get to know his mind and heart.

I'm very curious about this space that is "in-between" realities. This space where "non-ordinary" work and interraction occurs. For some reason I am wanting to call it "Middle Earth."

Goddess Circles

After a birthday celebration at the Duwamish Longhouse I drove north on Hi 99 and felt that presence again.  Something in the air (negative space), on the horizon, around me, arcing.  I don't know what to call it as it's so new.  As I drove past Seattle's ferris wheel facing West on the water's edge "it" spoke more loudly.  Goddess is here!  This revolving circle is our "crop" circle beaming/communicating through negative space.  I am searching for a word:  dominion, peace, contentment.  None of them do this presence justice. 

I was speaking about Sun and Moon recently.  I'm starting to consider the chakra system as a solar system.  What would be the sun and moon "glands" in our brain body? 

I continue to watch the healing process of my burned finger.  I thought a layer of skin would be shedding but the layers of skin are staying intact and somehow I think it's going to go back to normal tissue.  I think this healing has to do with the moisture in the skin...is this in between substance lymph?

I am fascinated by the wisdom of Edgar Cayce's "Source."  Here is something from Source on page 256, Edgar Cayce, An American Prophet: "The body," Cayce said, in trance, "is made of both the opposite, or positive and negative poles.  The body is not complete without the whole or both...[The ideal condition exists when there is] the perfect union in all forces, whether of the physical, mental, material, soul, or spirit (each with both positive and negative polarity].

In registering for Jean Houston's online course the question came up as to what I wanted to learn from the course...or what my intentions were.  How do I communicate that it is from what I and we give to the experience as to what the outcomes are?  It is a generative opportunity as we come together in a collective process. So, I guess the answer for me is that my intention is to Be more of myself than I am right now.  And to Be is to express....as I give so do I receive.  And those gifts of spirit are more than I can imagine.  I am seeing a garden and the fragrance and beauty of the flowers...how stimulating to the senses....how nourishing to the brain body.  Yes, we have "flowers" in our brains because we generate them.

I don't have to make sense in my writings....I am Goddess and can be as non-linear and emoting as wind currents and the spirits behind them. 

Blue Ray Dragon

I prefer to focus on the positive.  I am, however, emotional, dramatic, honest and that includes a full range of life experiences both positive and negative.

Teen boys rape teen girls. Men (famous and not) keep women in secret. Both men and women lie about their marital status. I have a friend dating online.  One of the men texted her the day after he was married.  I suggested that she inform the wife.  Someone else suggested it was not her business to inform the wife.  If it isn't her business whose is it?

He has a picture of a naked woman with "Nice Chicks" stapled to the wall in his chicken coop.  When my grandchildren saw it they were (gosh, how do I describe the look on their faces?) shocked.  I am now deciding that since I am the one tending chickens I should not have to look at that picture.  So, I have to communicate my feelings/thoughts about this to him.  Perhaps someone would say that this is not my business.  If not my business whose?

It is okay for women to stand up and speak out to the "dominant" sex.  If we don't who will?

Now in 2013 our global village is doing just that.  The vigilante group that is calling out the teen football players who allegedly raped the girl is an example.  Men who keep dark secrets are being exposed daily.  Is throat chakra influencing our local and global myth?  Yes, bring on the blues!

Our local myths become global and are told via world news.  We see dark dramas of good and evil.  Can we not create new dramas?  Instead of lower vibrational juices flowing can we not generate higher chemicals/hormones?  When will "happy" and "peace" be as exciting to our physical system as violence?  When we change the patterns in focus.

A lot of emotion moving through me regarding relationship change ranging from hurt, guilt, anger, to peace and well-being.  Relationships change when enough walls are hit by one or the other.  Those walls and those conflicts can make a relationship stronger or do just the opposite.  The only thing any one can do is to be in touch with feelings and communicate them (something men don't do well).  Honesty is the key to healing.  Do we have examples of this in our living myths?  Again, enter throat chakra.

I met a woman at our zip line rally and saw her at Soul Food Books recently.  She is going to introduce me to raw foods.  I could go online or get a book for recipes.  That is not much fun however.

It was fun to plug in to Jean Houston's online community and class yesterday.  It's fun because the experience is an open field like a garden.  I respond to this stimuli and others respond to that stimuli.  It's a bouncing back and forth of energy in feeling and thought and I can see "flowers" created in my own experience and in "our" experience as a group.  It's about the generation of intelligence that stimulates. Again, all one can do is be in touch with one's feelings and thoughts and express them.  Because of the collective disconnect between mind and emotion this is not always fluid and easy.  This bridging is something we are learning within and from one another.

I am seeing a blue misty being floating in between matter.  S/He is upholding the myth of Throat Chakra.  And so we begin our new year of WoMan.  I am reaching backward to weave forward the name:  Blue Ray Dragon.

2013 Mosaic

Chickens lay eggs every day!  Everyone should have a chicken so they are never hungry.

The other morning I burned a finger on the stove.  I ran cold water over it and radiated to it using my right hand and fingers the way I saw done in Emissaries of Divine Light.  I also used my mind to focus healing energy and I thought about how it was before the injury.  The pain throbbed in waves.  At one point I started to time both the pain and the negative space in between.  I applied oils and salves.  By afternoon there was no sign of blisters or burns.  There was/is a little numbness at the center of the finger so maybe a little nerve damage.  I believed my skin could heal quickly...and it did!  I don't want to have to experiment again, however.

New Year's Day morning held something new that was large, vast and clear.  An expansion of vibrational and dimensional space East and West.  Today I will describe it as an over arcing presence...omni-presence.

Walking in the woods I welcomed nature spirits home with me for the new year. 

I am seeing signs that my new friend is alcoholic.  Perhaps he and I can talk about addiction.  I welcome male friends in 2013!

I am not successful in disengaging from that long-distant orb.  The subtle/invisible space in between is too strong.  So, I am accepting it as it is.