Reptilian Brain

9/21

I went to bed early after a busy week.  As I lay there my “radar” picked up commotion. I sensed a shuffling and movement.  I watched further and saw dragon bodies moving this way and that…later reminding me of the “scrambler” a ride at the Puyallup Fair. The bodies were definitely grounded like the white meditation dragon…based in earth. Then I sensed Jean Houston, Caroline Myss and Louis Hay. When I asked about this I got “Dragon School.”  Does “commotion” now mean community in motion?

I want to change some words from a previous post regarding “treats”.  Now, the truth is a nutritious meal is a treat and I feel “off key” if I don’t feed myself this way.  I used to get anxious for sweet treats…that has changed and continues to deepen. My work is consistency right now and not the ups and downs. I find balance by enjoying all the taste sensations and knowing how to say “no” to over indulging in sweet treats. It’s definitely a new intelligence that is conscious as if my body is sounding a new pH “tone” and I am more aware of staying in tune.

9/26

Very lucid dream:  I was walking a country road and picked up pace. Then I was flying. In the air I felt a “chord” pull me one direction and then another. The chord was attached to the top of my head and I was very conscious of its pulling force in my earth body.  I landed in a crouched position and listened and watched.  I saw children playing. I joined them and soon asked, “What state do you live in?” “Virginia” was the response.

I find it fascinating that I am now asking questions in dreamtime.  I don’t remember doing that previously but then I am very lucid and don’t remember such details.

9/27

I have been perplexed.  Years ago I heard Deepak in Sedona speak about the many Indian gods and goddesses. I didn’t know their names and it’s still difficult for me to know them as nouns.  I did, however, experience these beings as verbs as their energies moved through me at that time. Jean Houston talks about Greek gods and goddesses and their names do not stick. It’s as if naming has no magnetic quality in my brain-body. I do, however, have energetic experiences with some of these beings and know them in the moment through an “animal magnetism.” This is a different dimension of brain-body and does remind me of the reptilian brain that most educated people dismiss as no longer significant in the role of intelligence. The other day I was reading Caroline Myss’ book Why People Don’t Heal and How They Can and the Hindu and Hebrew words that are used in the section about chakras were not registering or making an imprint.  Why can I not digest, relate and remember these things, these names?

I read the answer yesterday as I was sitting at the skate park with the boys I now care for. Kundalini in the Physical World, Mary Scott: “In philosophy there is something called the fallacy by naming. It means falling into the trap of thinking because we have given something a name we know what it is. We in the West seem to be in danger of falling into this trap over Kundalini.”

So, “naming” is not a noun but a verb which is how I know something outside of myself and…know myself.

9/29/13

Dream:  In the room with a couple of businessmen. Although an outsider I engage in conversation. Later outside the room one of the execs approaches me and with a new demeanor beams at me with a two-teeth grin and informs me that he wants me to be president of their new company that will be in operation soon.  I feel an overall sense of security.

This empowering dream led to thoughts in this reality:

I do not steer by man’s laws. I steer by scent. DO NOT underestimate the power of the reptilian brain. A brain that was manipulated with using genetically modified means. Not unlike what is being used today.

Those of us who were in Lemuria or Atlantis know the story deep within our bones; it’s in our DNA. We know the toxic influences and interferences that led to the fall of land and rise of sea. This fall will not repeat itself because a collective Body of Light holds a new pattern.

I have hit a plateau with my book writing at year 2008.  It’s the time I wrote “When the matriarchal hub of a family passes over the whole world stands still.” I have much more to write to bring my story up to the present and yet this story is never ending! It does seem as if Language of the Sacred Feminine evolved into Dragon Speak and S/He Dragon ~ My Kundalini Journey.  Writing my story has helped me be more articulate about my experience and as I was telling my hairdresser about the book I watched the passion rise through my body and out my mouth!

I look forward to the Writer’s Workshop in San Franscisco and learning how to fit my non-linear reality into a linear world.  Thank God/dess there are people to assist me in this.

Trumpet Angel

I am ready for change. Heaven and Earth is ready. Thus, I plant seeds:

1.   I see myself moving to a new physical location

2.   I see myself with an efficient communication system

3.   I see myself plugged in and engaged with a conscious and superconscious community composed of dynamic, intelligent parts

4.   I see myself with a part-time job that nurtures me and the whole

5.   I see myself protected from outside toxic interference

6.   I see my book being born into the Light of day

7.   I see alignment of parts and the whole as one circle, one symphony

The timing of seasons is not up to me alone. There are many factors and elements contributing to an abundant garden. I let this new garden grow.

Dark toxic forces think they can block and interfere with the parts when in fact they are the very force that brings positive change and growth. Why? Because Earth naturally moves into alignment when the tone of Heaven sounds. Earth naturally changes and heals to restore and sustain flow of Life Force. It is like a trumpet sounding in the book of Revelation.

So, I look for “trumpet” in Revelation.  It is not the trumpet of the Seven Angels of Woe or of Babylon. It is the trumpet that sounds a new heaven and new earth:  the New Jerusalem. Trumpet came into consciousness not because I particularly like the sharp sound as I prefer bass fiddle, drum, cello. Trumpet came through because it has a message through sound, a sound that penetrates matter with a wakeup call.

Dark and Light

Caroline Myss’ Reflections class on Energy Healing was groundbreaking mentally which was and still is stimulating! Her words gave me much to digest and I found myself drilling down into new territory of thinking (+) and sensing (-). I begin to see three forces at work: Light, Energy (+/-) and Matter. I’m not a scientist or a quantum physicist but I am Feminine and Masculine and know how these forces move me as one whole.

Light is pure and Divine. Dark is Light’s shadow due to the presence of matter. Matter is the medium for both Light and Dark.

Energy is composed of electrical currents (+/-). Matter is either receptive and porous or blocked to these forces. Matter lives in Light and e-motional connection or dies in stagnation due to the blockage of Light. Matter learns to hold a balanced charge that is inclusive of both parts.

Dark is opposite of Light just as negative charge is opposite of positive charge. How do these opposites work with each other rather than against each other?  I begin to see darkness and negativity as providing a boundary.  We know it when we feel it, see it. And as Caroline talks about it in her Laws of Concscience it is inherently natural that we know the difference.

As I look at my life and the Dark forces I deal with internally and in my environment I see that they inspire Light forces to connect, align and merge. Dark forces call forth white blood cells in the body to heal the parts and the whole. Dark forces, by their very presence, inspires us to use our intelligence to create balance and wellness. So instead of seeing darkness as the enemy and something I/we need to eradicate we can see darkness as a signal or sound that informs us when there is imbalance. Darkness or dis-ease teaches us to stay on a healing and peaceful path. The parts communicate “dis-ease” or “toxic” and the whole body comes to the rescue.

I see this playing out on the world stage as Obama is able to deliver new intelligence and new language because there is new stimulation and vision in the parts. We are quick to notice and cease the opportunity to move forward into Light so that balance can be found with Dark matter, in Dark matter.

Water Wheel Ceremony

Six women in Nature Spirit Medicine Apprenticeship gathered in Washougal, WA along the Columbia River for the Autumn Equinox Water Wheel ceremony. These wheels are being "grounded" all around the planet thanks to Marshall "Golden Eagle" Jack and many others. The women in this photo (Camilla taking the photo) have created these wheels along several rivers in Oregon and Washington. This morning as I was walking my two dogs (interesting when insights come through...they have a mind and timing of their own) I saw dragon feet stepping into these circles and so I saw them as "dragon tracks" where energy moves. Our ceremony took 3.5 hours and it was so much fun and powerful.  Imagine Power meaning fun!!  Do we need a new word for a new reality? We sang several earth chants which always makes me happy.  I'm so grateful to have a circle of women who share my mystical experiences.



 

Dragon Speak

I woke up a couple of mornings ago with creation threads for a children's book:  Dragon Quest with the plot of discovering Dragon Gems as chakras and with each opening and activation Dragon wings begin to grow.  I think I might be better at writing children's books since I don't like detail...it's that right feminine brain overview of the whole I am thinking.

Spending time with men (I am calling it dating) is giving me the opportunity to learn to communicate with them.  Conflicts are challenging but I am listening for the right way to say things as well as the right timing. I told one man some comments felt controlling.  He admitted he can be that way and apologized. I need to tell another man that he gets too close to my personal space as if he is not even aware that I have a "bubble" or aura around me that requires communication. I continue to ask for seeds of friendship and spiritual substance.

I started my new job and the boys are very well behaved with me.  They say, "Trish, can I play soccer."  "Trish, can I go to my friend's house."  I love hearing them call my name.  My kids call me mom and my grandkids call me g-ma.  For some reason hearing them call my name feels heart-warming.  The challenge with my job is the commute and I consider taking the bus which I have to look into.  One advantage, however, is spending time in Seattle where I can connect with friends and maybe attend some transition/sustainable meetings to avoid the rush hour traffic.  I am grateful to have revenue flow coming in!

I was hoping to participate in Caroline Myss's online event this week but there have been complications.  I spent time with Jean Houston this year and perhaps I will be able to spend time with Caroline in 2014. If I cannot join her "live" via the internet I will fly to be "live" with her.  I want to participate in her sessions on "healing."  At least that's where I am now.  So much changes so fast...and yet some things never change but shape shift in evolution.

Moon Circle tonight with EagleSong if I have enough time and energy after work and Nature Spirit Medicine circle tomorrow near Portland.  The pace of my life is picking up just when I was learning to be more still.  The effect of this is that my mind has to be more sharp and I have to be more efficient/organized.  I will see what I learn in this new cycle.

It's a breakthrough when I wake up and want steamed green beans from the garden as well as New York Goodwiches from Fit for Life cook book:  corn tortilla, mayo, bbq onions, avacado slice, dill pickle slice, shredded raw vegies (pepper, red cabbage, shredded raw greens). Healthy foods are high in volume (tone) these days and treats are secondary!

Camilla offered a meditation about ancestors recently on our phone call.  Everything she said about indigenous peoples of the earth I bridged with Dragon.  Dragon is my ancestor!  And that has to do with the marriage of energy and matter and that "split" that happened shapeshifting all life.

My heart is full of love this moment and I send it out in (I listen and watch for ways to express this) spiraling threads of golden light.  May Planet Earth be healed today...inch by inch, row by row, bless these seeds we sow. 


 

New Garden

I’m starting to feel like a healer whose “medicine” is internal and flowing out into my world via words/language/feedback loops. This non-linear brainwave flows from inner source and is the spacious (receptive/negative) part of a net or web.

My friend Laura, Director of Seattle’s Happiness Initiative, invited me to an event this past weekend with a group of people who are part of an Ecstatic Trance Dance community. I enjoyed this dancing experience that grounds me with the active/positive part of the net and helps me get into my physical body by moving muscle. 

The group did a “talent show” and I took my drum and sang a couple of earth chants. I was very rusty and not grounded. I didn’t practice and took my body for granted!  I am seeing that this physical house needs “discipline” through instruction that is not the same as flowing in the moment. I cannot expect to flow in everything I do in this reality.

In the beginning was One Void

Darkness was the face of the deep

And then there was Light

Creating motion through e-motional wings

Splitting the Void into

Positive and negative charges

Dragon became two

One Dragon stayed above, positive

One Dragon fell to Earth, negative

Human Beings are Dragons who have lost their wings

I’m stretching my wings with these words that are supported by feelings and thoughts. It is an evolving picture puzzle.

I meditated yesterday and was greeted by a white seated dragon who seemed to be a reflection of myself. This earth based dragon is new! I asked for information but there were no words. I then did some yoga poses and noticed how my body breathed deeply. This was also new as I have not imposed deep breathing into my poses as once again I am in flow.  It does seem that when I let my body speak I am allowing it to access deep unconscious terrain rather than imposing a mental instruction. I continue to let “listening” and “letting” happen via the Sacred Feminine. Often this means I have to do things alone rather than in groups where there is an instructor.

Last night in our Nature Spirit Medicine circle we meditated and did energy work with the dragon lines/ley lines in Syria. In so doing I saw a colorless dragon in the sky breathing...not fire…the breath of life. As a circle we are acknowledging the movement out of fiery summer and into earthy autumn. This life breathing dragon seemed to say that we’ve had enough fire…in Syria. For the first time I am speaking about dragon, kundalinli, chakras in a public forum. Doing so makes me feel humble and even timid. I have so much to say and am not sure how it will be received. I want to deliver the messages without turning people away.  Camilla always integrates the threads that I bring into a larger whole.  We both agree that we have “work” to do together and are considering creating a YouTube video and are now in the process of listening and creating space for that creation.

In Transition

It just so happens that I am flying in to San Francisco on October 10 for Jean Houston's event the next day.  And it just so happens that Rob is giving a talk in Oakland that evening.  I so value Rob and his Transition work.  I'm looking forward to being there!

Rainbow Loops

I am seeing rainbow feedback loops via chakras, cells and stars.  Rainbow colors held by dark positive force and light negative force.  Those symbols (+/-) are at the top and the botom (-/+) of the chakra loops. Kundalini runs through the parts and the whole.  Communication is a feedback looping system and I am happy when I start my morning with FB friends.  This networking gives me an uplift as if I am "plugging in."
I am identifying the wing chakra as turquoise in color because of it's association with green heart and blue throat. 

Monday Louise Hay and Carolin Myss were weaving in and out of consciousness.  Not sure why...and not sure how to loop with feedback. I will keep an eye open.

I watch CNN at times and heard a few people criticize Obama for being indecisive regarding Syria.  These people don't know what a "process" looks like, sounds like.  A process includes many feedback loops and an intelligent process waits and listens and then takes the next step.  I see Obama as honoring internal feedback loops as well as engaging others nationally and internationally in a process of intelligent communicaiton. (Heart/Wing/Throat chakra take a bow!)

A man said to me that he can't get to know a woman without having sex with her and that studies show that women can be "just friends" but men cannot.  This morning I thought of what I can say in response:  I can't get to know a man without spiritual substance and friendship and that is sexual!

"Intelligence" is not about spying and stealing information.  World "powers" are not countries with military might. As communication evolves in enlightenment so will our language.

Chakra Cylinders Engaged

I see via these blog postings a circuitry or feedback system of my emotional ups and downs. I am a living expression of dark and light/yin and yang that includes an emotional spectrum of colors and sounds. I honor and dance with the whole process of elemental emotion including water, air, earth and fire.

I also see this circuitry and feedback looping on FB as I am feeling enlivened by "sound-bite" communications.  It's fun to read a post, sense something move within, start to respond without knowing what I am about to say and then watching language unfold. I usually don't remember what I wrote as the process is so very in the NOW.  I find it magical.

I am like an engine with cylinders and I see chakras as cylinders. I used to live out of two cylinders: red and orange (which I write about in my book).  Now I live/express a full rainbow range.  This is coming into consciousness as I relate to men as friends. I am learning that men around me want sex before they want friendship and spiritual substance.  I can get a little angry about this but my Sacred Masculine speaks up telling my emotions not to be angry and so I calm down. Men have not been taught or shown otherwise...at least in my world. This vehicle that I am is more that lower chakras and I cannot move forward without all the cylinders engaged.  I'm happy to know this about myself in relationship to my Sacred Masculine and Sacred Feminine. It takes time to get to know someone and generate spiritual substance. Rushing into sex is putting the cart before the horsepower.

I'm watching the Syrian crisis developments.  I think it is Obama's maturity and emotional intelligence that gives Putin the "wiggle room" to step forward as a world player in the drama.  He has not belittled Putin nor has he acted arrogant like othe leaders we've known.  I hope that possibility thread is continuing to play out.  I think of Rob Hopkins' "the creative genius of community" and hear voices around the world wanting more than a war reaction to Syria.  Our voices have made a difference.  The new "grassroots" just elevated to "global grassroots" in another quantum leap.

Today feels like a "high"...I am high as a kite.  Tomorrow I may feel different.  I trust the music that dances me and I'm starting to trust other humans as well.  It is a good day.

Dragon Medicine

Incredible lightning and thunder last night that went on for hours.  At one point I realized Dragon was calling me outside to observe his powers.  I looked to the Northwest and a circle opened up in the sky...Dragon Eye!  The storm felt intimate.

I need to make a correction on yesterday's post.  I did not turn the red car around and the other direction. I was turned around.  There is a vast difference in the two.  The former is steered by unseen forces outside my body and the latter is steered by my brain-body.  Very different sensations.

A friend was at the house and received a call from a friend whose son had just stepped on a rattle snake and was in a helicopter being transported to a hospital. I suggested we have a moment of silence and focus on the candle burning on the table (white light is my "medicine"). Then I saw the outline of this young boy with a line or chord coming down from his side. I mentioned this to my friend and that I we could pull out the poison. The image stayed with me for some time.  I also heard from rattlesnake saying that he didn't mean to hurt the boy.  This hearing feedback is all new to me.  I don't think I have heard in this way before...but it's not easy for me to view myself and know these things.

I am also experiencing new feedback loops on FB.  I am enjoying responding more to people and starting to feel a lot of love moving.  It is a new "intelligence."

I am not happy about my book today.  Perhaps all writer's go through this.  I will keep writing but feel very detached today. I think publishing a book will make me feel as if I fit in this world.  And yet it's more than that.  I have much I want to share about angel, salamander, dragon, kundalini, Nature.  I want to share this love affair that I know through the living of  my life.

I give credit to kundalini dragon's life force for the new feedback loops within myself and with other people.

Kundalini Chakra System Explained - 1 of 3 (You Tube)

Dream:  In a bright red eco-car moving forward.  Water is rising I drive through and then fly upward turning around the other direction.  I land in a village next to horses and a simple house.  I watch the syoung woman managing her children. She sees me and says, "Hi Trish, we were expecting you." I ask how she knows me and in an instant get the telepathic connection. I was struck by this wisdom in such a humble setting.

I have met a woman on FB who, I think is East Indian.  Her posts are very wise and resonate with me. She is starting to feel like a "pen pal." It's interesting all the levels of "intelligence" or communication on FB. I can talk to a few about dragon and fairy; others about Transition; others about Coal Train; others about self-awareness; others about Feminine/Masculine.  So many angles of relating

There is an incrdible You Tube that I don't know how to embed here. It depicts the green heart chakra as a serpent or dragaon with wings...it is so right on! as far as my experience goes.  What is Dragon all about?
I see it as an increase in Life Force in our nervous system and dense matter. Dragon will reveal him/herself to us and we will see the effects all around us.  Yes, new intelligence and new communication.

Kundalini Chakra System Explained - 1 of 3

 

Dragon Yoga

I am coming out of my shell and starting to engage in community again.  My priority is to stay  in balance and I get a sense of what that feels like after 3 days of solitude and being "lazy."  Interesting how that word had a negative connotation with me.  Being lazy is enchanting.

I value my relationship with Camilla, Nature Spirit Medicine. She has a gifted way of weaving language and bringing words into a collective web. This morning I "got" that I'd like the two of us to record on video/YouTube and introduced the idea to her. She is very receptive to the idea.  In this unfoldment I looked at what it is about our relationship that works and it has to do with fire of inspiration. She brings something out in me and I know that feedback loop goes both ways. So, we may have some creative work to do together.  We are definitely in process.

I am writing a chapter about Shadow and Light that is definitely my journey.  I got that two dragons were one and then became two...one "falling" into dense matter.  I am letting "dragon" tell this story. 

The tree that is "grumpy" stand alone and next to a power transformer.  I met another tree, a large
douglas Fir, that is next to another housing development recently clear cut. As I turned to leave I heard Fir say, "here to give." So, here is a tree holding unconditional love.  Camilla suggested that I ask the tree to reach out to the distressed tree and I will do that.

The other night I was laying in my garden between the rows of fragrant white flowers that bloom at night looking up at the stars. I am so fortunate to live in the valley with so few people and houses next to me.  My thought of moving to Ballard is out of the question!  I could not breathe in that density. So, it's good to know I am planted where I am and will accept my commute in a good way.  A friend gave me her deck of yoga cards. I am pulling out a couple every day and practicing.  I am learning many postures and their benefits as well as moving my body.  I plan to take the deck to the boys I will soon nanny and see if they want to do yoga...maybe the neighborhood boys will participate in a yoga club.  The dad does martial arts so this could be an extension. I will be creative at my new job!